To die for
Chapter 4


A/N: Okay, before I start on the next chapter, I want to get this strait. Marron always loved Trunks, weather a brother or more, she was just taken aback at his question she said yes before her mind could say anything. You can TOTALLY tell I'm making that up, but it's my story, right? Besides, if Trunks asked you to marry him, what would YOU say? =P Saa. Skipping the warning. If you truly want to read it, go to chapter 1 or 2.

P.S. This chapter is weird. It has third-person POV in some parts, and Pan's POV in others. Oh, and don't forget Trunks ^_~

P.S.S. R&R and enjoy!

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"Pan," Trunks said, whispering in her ear. "Pan, can you hear me? I love you. I've always loved you, I've just denyed it this whole time." He studied her face again. Still pale and unmoving.

He closed his eyes. "Pan, remember when we went searching for the dark-star dragonballs? I had so much fun, Pan, even if you *did* make me dress up as a girl..." He chuckled softly at the memory. "In a way now, I'm glad Goten didn't come. I got closer to you that way."

Trunks smiled slightly once again and returned to telling her stories. "Remember when..." and "Did you see the look on his face..." went on for hours. Trunks shared everything he could with the demi-saiyajin. He talked about the adventures and the fun times. He told her about the time she was born ("You were a beautiful baby, did you know that?"). When he finally ran out of memories to tell, he sat back in his chair and watched her. "Oh Kami, Pan-chan..."

He froze. Something wet was gliding down the sides of her face. Trunks reached out and wiped it away. His heart gave a leap. She was crying.

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[A/N you didn't think I'd end it here, did you!?]

I feel like I'm waking up from a deep slumber very slowly. My head is clouded and I don't even know who I am. It's dark in here. Wasn't Heaven suppose to be bright and warm? No, it's too dark...the darkness is familiar...

I recall seeing the light. It was so bright, like a shiny orb that hypnotized you, that drew you further. It was so warm, so welcoming. I could almost touch it. But then, it was gone.

That's when I suddenly feel it. There's a dull throbbing on my arm. That's weird. Wasn't pain suppose to leave after death? Wait a sec...

Oh no.

I'm still alive.

My senses become clearer, and I start to hear voices. At first, it sounds like a lady and a man talking. Then the woman leaves. There so far away, come closer!

If I tune in hard enough, I can almost hear what it's saying. "Why, Pan?" I frown. Who's Pan? I hear it again, this person sounds almost desperate. Poor Pan, I wonder who she is.

That's when it hits me like a slap across the face: I am Pan.

That's when I remember what happened. That's why my arm is throbbing. I recall the glass slice my skin open, I remember the pleasure I felt as I watched the blood run down my arm. I remember laughter. I remember letting the blackness overcome me, thinking it was all over.

But it isn't over, is it?

"I'm so sorry, Pan," The voice says again. It's soothing. I found myself relaxing and listening to the voice. It speaks again. My hearing is clearer now, it is recalling evens, memories, feelings. Something about a journey...what is this voice talking about?

"I should've been a better friend to you," It says after a long pause. A friend? I must know this person. I listen closer. "I should've been something more."

I feel something go out and touch me. Is the voice touching me? Indeed it is. It's so relaxing.

"You are beautiful, Panny, why didn't I notice that before?" Woah. I can feel my heart beat for the first time in a long time.

"I know you loved me, Pan. That's the reason you did this, isn't it? Becuase I was marrying Marron. Panny, that girl should've been you. Why did you love me so much? To love me to the point of killing yourself?"

He is asking me why I love him. Is there a real answer to love?

"Pan," I hear. The voice is much clearer this time, almost as if the person was standing right next to me. "Pan, I love you. I've always loved you, I've just been denying it this whole time."

*Trunks.*

The name flashes before me like a blinding light. I fell my hand entwined in his. There's nothing more I can do then just listen to my heart beat.

*Trunks, I'm here!* I scream, although no sound escapes my throat. *I still love you, Trunks!*

Why can't he hear me?
v "I know you probably don't love me anymore, seeing that I did this to you. But I want you to know that I will always love you."

*No, no no! I still love you! I always will! You complete me, Trunks. Try to listen!* I can begin to feel my eyes stinging.

"Forgive me, Pan, forgive me..."

I feel a tear at the corner of my eye and slowly make its way down my cheek. Then everything fades.

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Trunks watched the tear run down her face before brushing it away. His heart gave a huge leap, and he was getting the urge to jump in the air and whoop.

"Panny, can you hear me?" Trunks said, looking at her face. He got an idea. "Pan, if you can hear me, squeeze my hand." He waited. Finally, very faintly, Trunks felt her hand wrap around his and gently squeeze.

"Oh Kami," Trunks said under his breath. He felt as if a great weight was lifted from his shoulders.

"Panny, wake up," He whispered in her ear. "Wake up, please. Everyone's waiting for you." She flinched slightly, as Trunks reached out and caressed her face. It was as smooth and fine as spider's silk. He leaned into her, his eyes closing slowly, and gently pressed his lips against hers. He felt an incredible feeling inside of him, and every depressing thought seemed to vanish. He felt care-free and light, as if he was floating. He felt her lips move benieth his own, and he quickly broke off and looked down at her.

Her eyes were open and she was looking at Trunks with the most loving expression he'd ever seen from anyone. He couldn't stop himself, he flung his arms around Pan and held her tight. Tears were falling down his face faster then rain, but he didn't care. He rocked her slowly back and forth, smoothing her hair with his hand. *She's alive,* He thought. *She's alive!!* He broke away and examined her, his hands still pinned on her shoulders. "Panny, oh Panny, I thought I'd lost you!"

Pan shook her head, smiling. "No. I knew I wasn't going to die. Was that you talking to me, just now?"

Trunks smiled and nodded. His smile vanished almost instantly. "Pan, I want you to tell me why you tried to kill yourself."

Pan, no longer grinning, looked uncomfortable. "Do I have to?"

"Yes."

"Because I thought I'd never be with you," Pan said softly. "When I heard that you were getting engaged to Marron, I felt like I had drowned. I felt numb. I knew I had lost my chance. I told myself I was useless without you, and so I thought life wasn't worth living anymore..."

Trunks looked shocked. "Are you saying that you nearly killed yourself because of the engagement?"

Pan nodded, turning red with embarrassment. "Hai."

Trunks smiled. "Well, I don't think you have to worry anymore, Marron was just in here, and she--"

"--called off the engagement," Pan finished, looking guilty. "I know. I heard."

There was a pause in the room. "Do you still love me?" Trunks said, his voice just barely above a whisper. Pan jerked her head up and nodded. "Yes I do. I always will."

"I love you, Son Pan."

"I love you too, Trunks Briefs," Pan choked, then dropped her head on his neck and let out a sob. Trunks patted her hair and closed his eyes, listening to her heartbeat.

The nurse had come in, saying she heard a female talking in the room. She dropped her tray when she saw that Pan had woken, and invited the group back into the room. Pan was being hugged and kissed, her mother and grandmother sobbing ("Don't you ever do that again, Pan!"). The nurse took a tissue from her pocket and dabbed her eyes. "A perfect ending. Would you two like something to eat?"

Both of them nodded, still clinging to eachother, grinning. Death had lost at long last.


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"...and when you're better," Trunks said, popping a piece of bread into Pan's mouth after everyone had left. "We'll do everything we should've done years ago! Dates, traveling, walks in the park, you name it!" Pan grinned as she slowly chewed her food. Trunks tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. "Promise me, Panny, promise me that you'll get better. And you'll never even think of doing anything like that again."

"I promise," Pan murmured, pressing her forehead to his. "That I'll get better. I'll do it for you." She leaned in and kissed him softly.
"Pan, do it for you," He whispered before pulling her into a kiss again.

"Okay," she said after they finally pulled apart. "I'll do it for everyone I hurt. And you want to know something?"

"What?"

"I love you."

"I love you, too."


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End chapter 4!

HA! Told ya it was going to get sappy and fluffy! ^.^ Did you guys like it? Final chapter, I just have to get the epilouge out and I'm done. Expect that sometime tomorrow.

The thank-you section!

Everyone I previously mentioned, as well as ~*Bee*~ (Yes, Pan has finally awoken! Happy? ^_~), Tom (nope, not depressing in this chapter!), Lanfir (explained it at the top, darl'n, explained it all =)), *Psylocke* (Wow, you're crying!? Woah. Thanks, I guess ^~^; Hope you enjoyed this chapter), Lorraine (yep, now there's 4!), fluffy (Wow, this is your 3rd review! Thank you!), Marian (thanks so much for your review! Marron is really generous, isn't she??), Katie (thank you! ^_^), hotaru_chan (Again, thank you as well!), ~PanHopeNvs~ (Yes, I made Marron nice! That's cause she *is* nice! =P), Me (hee, luv the name! How come there's so many people who don't like Marron!? =( Alli86 (Speechless, eh? *blushes* Thank you much!), karen (Thank you for the kind compliment! ^_^), Dnt&Mr.Yuck (Woah, cool name! Sorry if it made you cry =( but I'm glad you like it.), Rose (I updated. See? ^.~), Kureeji (You reviewed twice! Arigato! Thanks for the compliment, I was trying to get it as descriptive as possible), and last but not least, Jacks (Thank you so much! Your review really cheered me up! ^_^).

I love you all! *sniff*
~Hachimitsu


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